I left it too late. I forever have and will have guilt. I’ve always loved you. I can’t deal with the idea you’re gone and the idea I haven’t seen you and been with and there for you, I have no right :( I have the best memories of you that I wish could’ve carried on. I was led into such a wrong direction and I can only be sorry and that will never be good enough. I have missed out on more than you. I still call you Nan x I never meant to hurt anyone x